soccer in the rain

today i played soccer n the rain with a bunch of my friends, it was great. i missed soccer, i jsut hate playing it competitively , i jsut like being stupid and having fun. i was SOO soaked wehn i came home adn i took a bath and feel sooo relaxed. i ahd yoga yesterday to so my muscles are all like WHAT THE FUCK?! but it feels good. needless to say i am in a much better mood then yesterday, except i dont feel comeplelty right yet, but whatever.

a few days ago a got my book in teh mail for my basic rehabilitation trainning in toronto. its soooo cool, it teaches you abovut these medacines and symptoms, was of restraining animals bandaging tehm etc. it really puts all the crap im learning at school in perspective since i can see easier how all that stuff links back to taking care of animals. aanywyas that is all i suppose.

can i jsut stay home tomorow?

GPC slut

i have somehow lost teh ability to differentiate between living breathing 3D people and 2 d cut outs. what i mean is, its come to my attention that i've been sorta too tierd to think of anyone as more tehn self sustaining blumps. urg this is ahrd to explain in non insulting terms. what i mean is i have been out of it lately enough to fall back on teh assumption that as unsually everyone is more mentally stable them myself. i dont even think thats actaully true i guess. tis jsut this backround given that sorta pops up in my brain when i'm too tierd to look closely at anything thats going on. not tht anythigns going on. ha well it makes sense to me who knows. simple words now: im on edge, im moody adn im unobservant. its a crazy week, im working agian aftre 3 weeks off and i ahve 3 test this week. but it's nearing teh end so i can do it i ahve faith! I might seem slightly whinny to so some people... im sorry im just honestly dead. so why am i blogging past 12 you may ask? i dunno maybe i thought this would give me back the shards of sanity that disapear with lack of sleep.

this weekend was awesome. well more specifically friday was awesome, we had super wtih almost everybody, the largest amount of my friends that we've beena ble to get together since grad. which you should know to a lily mind is a very big happy thing.

oh and you ask why GPC slut? well it's actually something maya wrote on my cell today wich may acutally apply. i mean less then 25% of the surveys i've done ahve been useless to anything i care about. i didnt expect mroe tehn that really, i guess its jsut kinda ironic that the closest i get to going agaisnt what i beleive in is at work but i work to get money to take courses so i can learn stuff to help what i beleive in. funny eh? its not a big deal really, its more like occasional nail scratching on my morality chalk board. hahhahaha oh man i need sleep
gnight!
oh and as a side note i talked to a crazy lady today on the phone, im serious she was asking is i knew when bob was going to fix her clock radio that ehs hung aroud her neck or something like that

cornered by my text books

ahhh
i have started cejep, my homework pile currently is:
bio sheet
Bio lab
Chem lab
Philosophy reading/questions/memorizing terms
reading Barnaby something or other in fat Lit book
math worksheet
prepare for chem lab
prepare fro bio lab
look through chem book becasue teacher is insaen and i dont understand him

i have doing homewrok pretty ocnstantly since 5 oclock and i ahve done less tehn half of my bio lab, the intro to my chem lab, less then half of my math, one bio sheet question. ARG

the good news is im doing it all in advance so i dont have to try and cram all that in in one night. the plan is to be done it by tomorow ngiht so i ahve the whole long weekend, and i will have monday to go over everything adn kae sure i diding fuck up.

i am feeling very melodramatic, i dont know if thats the right word... i really miss everyone who is missing from school. i've been trying to call some of them msotly sam n leah the past two ngiht jsut to say hello, but my bad luck made them not be home. sigh bah i hate growing up. well i dont hate growing up i guess i jsut hate that rihgt now it sorta includes growing away from people. i know i wont see some of my really good friends very often this year. i just gotta get used of it i guess. i feel like im being stupid so ill shut up. i jsut miss them thast all.
goodnight